July 29, 2008
It is official I am insane!
I have thought it over and over in my head and have come to the conclusion that nothing would make me happier right now than to leave the business programming world and start making games, or at least something game related.
Why am I saying I’m insane? Well, I have a great job with great benefits and I get to work regular hours, overtime is an exception that only has happened about twice in the last two years. I get yearly raises and am paid pretty well for the area I am in. They even provide us with training off-site once a year and the time to train on-site figured into our availability. Yet, I want to leave it for the game field.
I am not working on Dragonlings, because I am working on other things that are quicker, things I can get done, because my history of business apps doesn’t exactly sell in the gaming field. I have been told I need the portfolio by someone on the inside which backs up what I already knew. I will do everything I can to make this happen and I will have the job I have always dreamed of.
My quest now is to try to figure out what I can make, what can I do that can impress the powers that be? I feel confident enough in my programming ability now that I know I can do the job, I just need to convince everyone else that I can as well.
Will Dragonlings ever get more love? I really don’t know. Part of me thinks that if I can get it running that would be the clincher, but part of me thinks that taking my time working on my project doesn’t really demonstrate that I am willing to work on others projects nearly as much.
I don’t know for sure, but I am going to keep trying and maybe someday I will actually say more than “just a programmer” when people ask me what I do. I will be able to say I make games for a living, or at least help to make them, and I would be so happy to finally hit one of the goals I have always had.
